Saturday, August 20, 2011
its almost disgusting to admit how many photos i've taken of Lottie Pearl. even worse knowing that our second child will probably have only a few photos taken amongst the chaos of raising 2 kids at a time.
my parents have been divorced pretty much my whole life, certainly for my entire memory. they always claim one parent has 'the photo album' and that whoever has it is keeping it secret so they don't have to share it. ridiculously silly i know but i honestly think they find it easier to keep blaming each other rather than admit they have actually just lost it.
of course family photos were different in the 80's. slide and negative film was expensive and there was still the magic of sending a roll away and having that ONE magic photo where everything worked and it was beautiful. otherwise all the other photos were just 'records' complete with blurriness, non-smiles, closed eyes.
now we take a million photographs of the same thing until we get the image we like. it means there is a much greater 'filter' on our life. i guess the same could be said for blogging. it is a contrived selection of our 'life'. i find this all incredibly interesting and wrote part of my thesis on the concept of authenticity within photography. now with a child i find myself striving for that perfect image but then ultimately deciding the best photo is merely just a record of an incredible moment. composition, focus and intangible beauty are all just a bonus.
i think i am becoming a mother in every sense - where sentimentality blinds aesthetics!
(I finally just edited the mass collection of photos of Lottie Pearl's entire life and printed hard copies of them all! total satisfaction!)